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major_westI'm not used to people looking out for me. It's a funny sort of role reversal. This entire experience has been one strange, mad event after another and I don't know who I am anymore I feel out of sorts.
I don't know if I want to be here anymore.
Well. Anyway. The door's back.
[OOC: AS USUAL, whenever people get too close to him, he freaks out and pulls away. Strikes can be deciphered if you really care enough to squint]
I don't know if I want to be here anymore.
Well. Anyway. The door's back.
[OOC: AS USUAL, whenever people get too close to him, he freaks out and pulls away. Strikes can be deciphered if you really care enough to squint]
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Date: 2008-09-29 01:06 am (UTC)coldruthless--Pragmatic is the word I would use. I had to push away 'softer' emotions to survive.Because the circumstances changed.
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Date: 2008-09-29 01:22 am (UTC)Private - after a very long pause
Date: 2008-09-29 01:26 am (UTC)But I can't be anything else with him here. I won't allow him to see me any other way.
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Date: 2008-09-29 01:27 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:33 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:35 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:36 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:43 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:47 am (UTC)Honestly, how would a change to what I was not be an improvement?
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Date: 2008-09-29 01:58 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 01:59 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 02:02 am (UTC)But it was a long time before Romana could convince me to come out of my
cellcabin. I was afraid to. You spend so long in a cage and you tend to forget what it is like not to have your door locked at all times.Private
Date: 2008-09-29 02:06 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 02:34 am (UTC)You have no qualms until this boy comes along.
Me?
Well -- it does no good for me to say you should be yourself when I do not wear my heart on my sleeve at all times, either. You have one boy to worry about, and I've every dangerous man on this barge out for my blood, half of them for something I did not even do. I'm fucking terrified.
There are times when I think the last weeks would have been unbearable if I could not have taken solace in you.
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Date: 2008-09-29 02:42 am (UTC)I tried to convince them that you didn't do it, but nobody's willing to believe me. I think they suspect...
How's your wrist?
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Date: 2008-09-29 02:44 am (UTC)You've no need to apologize. If I had published a story I would have seen the same outcry. There were plenty that wanted me dead before that last one came out.
That's the trouble with being yourself and dealing with fear. Integrity may be worth dying for but it's still not the most enjoyable of choices.
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Date: 2008-09-29 02:51 am (UTC)True.
For all my rudeness when we first met... I really did admire you.
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Date: 2008-09-29 02:54 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 02:55 am (UTC)So... how are you feeling, overall? Still bedridden?
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Date: 2008-09-29 02:56 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 03:08 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2008-09-29 03:09 am (UTC)Private - I'm assuming this takes place before he made his date with Horrible
Date: 2008-09-29 03:14 am (UTC)