major_west: (hey guys)
Blizzard aside, I'd say that was well done on the Admiral's part. It's something of a relief to see on occasion that life outside the Barge simply... continues. [Why yes, that's a tiny hint of progress there, since West, at the beginning, would have NEVER FOUND THAT THOUGHT ACCEPTABLE OR BELIEVABLE. It only took two years to get that far :V] Many of our worlds may have ended, but a future still exists out there.

[He pauses, thinking. This is too hopeful; TIME TO RUIN IT.]

Still. Perhaps Infection-- or something like it-- was as imminent in that world as it was in mine. After all, the days before the outbreak were much the same as any other. Who here wonders about the worlds after we depart from them?

[OOC: Shitty shitty post, I'm sorry :c And I'm going to bed. Just wanted to get SOMETHING up. Uh, I'll probably be.. IDK. Nearly non-existent until Friday evening.]
major_west: (:c)
If I-- that is, my... soldier... shagged any of... er, your loved ones, I apologise. My men... they were all really quite young, and they hadn't seen any women in quite some time before we died. They thought the human race was dead-- all of it, except for us. You can imagine the relief, then, that one would feel upon coming out of that situation.

That's all I have to say about that flood.

[ADDED LATER: Private to the Admiral & Morgan]
I want them back. I don't care if they're here or on another Barge, somewhere else.

[OOC: ALRIGHT, so Clifton was sort of hitting on all sorts of ladies because he just got back from an apocalyptic sausage fest; HOWEVER, I'm not patient enough to hit on all the girls, and I didn't troll quite as many as I'd intended. If you were playing an easy chick and want to assume he boned you, GO AHEAD. Otherwise, I figure there's just an annoyed Paddy and Cox C:]
major_west: (:c)
[Private to: Morgan. Viewable by Billy and the Marquis]
Just tell me that I couldn't have prevented this even if I had listened to you, Morgan.

[OOC: Typically, West wouldn't give a shit about JD, buuuut since Morgan did raise the issue of his unhealthy relations with creepo, and West's response was to weasel out of it instead of help him out, he sort of feels like he COULD HAVE prevented it. So now he feels like a dick. And it's likely this is more about his BOYYYZ than JD anyway.]
major_west: (explaining stuff (IN THE SHADOWS!))
The first time I had to shoot a civilian-- hostile, actually. They lose civilian status the moment the Infection hits their system-- it was the first I'd actually been faced with the Infected. In my position, I only had to supervise. Direct. For the first days, I was perfectly isolated from what was really happening. But as our numbers dwindled and the other officers...

She was an older woman, blonde, dressed as though she'd been coming back from a nice dinner. She reminded me of my mother. From a distance, I might've even thought it was her, but... No. I don't believe she ever made it out of London.

Still, the similarities were there-- strengthened, because I wanted to see them, I think, despite the blood on its face and clothing, even in its hair-- and I didn't know what to do. For all my training, I froze, and I let it tackle me. Perhaps I should have died then, but I managed to grab hold of my service pistol, and I shot it once, in the stomach, and it was enough to momentarily stun the Infected. I got out from under it, and I shot it again, in the head.

I thought it was the worst thing I'd ever done. But every time I had to kill an Infected-- adults, children, men and women-- it became easier, until I thought nothing of it at all. Sometimes, it was even fun. A game.

That day, I found my men and returned to the base. Every day, less and less came back. Eventually, we moved to a barricade outside of Manchester. After that, a fortified manor. It seemed safe, at first, but I knew it was a tomb. By then, I'd realised that dealing with the Infected was little more than attrition warfare. We just had to wait until they'd exhausted their numbers.

It's simple enough, in theory.

[OOC: BACKGROUND! He meant to make this private to Billy, messed up, then when he realized others had read it just went "Well... FUCK IT, IT'S TOO LATE >("]

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Feb. 6th, 2009 10:51 am
major_west: (talky talk)
I've considered writing something more eloquent; however, I don't really see the point right now, so I'll simply lay it out: I don't understand how things work here. I don't understand how we are expected to undergo these floods, these ports, and now-- most recently-- this "invasion," and gain anything positive from what is, essentially, torture manipulation. It seems very... Old Testament, an "eye for an eye" sort of affair. At least, this has been my own personal experience here. I've done terrible things to people, and in return, I have to have terrible things done to me in excess in order to... repent? Absolve myself? Become "good enough" to deserve some vague sort of reward? Am I expected to repress everything and smile, move on to the next violation of my very self? I can do it-- I'm no stranger to repression, after all-- but I'm not going to gain anything from it.

I wasn't wrong.

I had an identity that was worth something back home, but I failed to uphold it. I'm nothing here. Just an Inmate. I have nowhere to go-- nowhere I'd want to go, at least-- and I don't want to become a Warden. I utterly detest the Wardens. What reason do I have to graduate?

Well. It's something to think about.

My apologies to anybody whose sleep I've disturbed in the past week. I hope that it won't happen again.

[OOC: EMOOOO ARAGHHH. But yeah, West's nightmares have had him screaming several nights in a row, but thanks to Billy, it's probably going to stop now!]
major_west: (glancing away)
Well, it's certainly a relief to have regained basic reading and writing comprehension. And yes, I know how to spell my damn name, alright? Let's not talk about that. Ever again.

Apologies to anybody I've beaten into a bloody pulp, insulted, stuffed into a locker, or made cry in the past week. Except for Solo. Can we all just pretend none of this happened?

Billy, er... I... that was not me, so there's nothing... Right. Never again.

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