078 - Flashback Theatre with Henry West
Mar. 22nd, 2009 02:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
major_westThe first time I had to shoot a civilian-- hostile, actually. They lose civilian status the moment the Infection hits their system-- it was the first I'd actually been faced with the Infected. In my position, I only had to supervise. Direct. For the first days, I was perfectly isolated from what was really happening. But as our numbers dwindled and the other officers...
She was an older woman, blonde, dressed as though she'd been coming back from a nice dinner. She reminded me of my mother. From a distance, I might've even thought it was her, but... No. I don't believe she ever made it out of London.
Still, the similarities were there-- strengthened, because I wanted to see them, I think, despite the blood on its face and clothing, even in its hair-- and I didn't know what to do. For all my training, I froze, and I let it tackle me. Perhaps I should have died then, but I managed to grab hold of my service pistol, and I shot it once, in the stomach, and it was enough to momentarily stun the Infected. I got out from under it, and I shot it again, in the head.
I thought it was the worst thing I'd ever done. But every time I had to kill an Infected-- adults, children, men and women-- it became easier, until I thought nothing of it at all.Sometimes, it was even fun. A game.
That day, I found my men and returned to the base. Every day, less and less came back. Eventually, we moved to a barricade outside of Manchester. After that, a fortified manor. It seemed safe, at first, but I knew it was a tomb. By then, I'd realised that dealing with the Infected was little more than attrition warfare. We just had to wait until they'd exhausted their numbers.
It's simple enough, in theory.
[OOC: BACKGROUND! He meant to make this private to Billy, messed up, then when he realized others had read it just went "Well... FUCK IT, IT'S TOO LATE >("]
She was an older woman, blonde, dressed as though she'd been coming back from a nice dinner. She reminded me of my mother. From a distance, I might've even thought it was her, but... No. I don't believe she ever made it out of London.
Still, the similarities were there-- strengthened, because I wanted to see them, I think, despite the blood on its face and clothing, even in its hair-- and I didn't know what to do. For all my training, I froze, and I let it tackle me. Perhaps I should have died then, but I managed to grab hold of my service pistol, and I shot it once, in the stomach, and it was enough to momentarily stun the Infected. I got out from under it, and I shot it again, in the head.
I thought it was the worst thing I'd ever done. But every time I had to kill an Infected-- adults, children, men and women-- it became easier, until I thought nothing of it at all.
That day, I found my men and returned to the base. Every day, less and less came back. Eventually, we moved to a barricade outside of Manchester. After that, a fortified manor. It seemed safe, at first, but I knew it was a tomb. By then, I'd realised that dealing with the Infected was little more than attrition warfare. We just had to wait until they'd exhausted their numbers.
It's simple enough, in theory.
[OOC: BACKGROUND! He meant to make this private to Billy, messed up, then when he realized others had read it just went "Well... FUCK IT, IT'S TOO LATE >("]
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:09 pm (UTC)You had to be that person West, it doesn't mean you still are.
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:10 pm (UTC)And I'm fairly certain that I'm not as sane as I was before it happened.He's going to cheerfully enable you now
Date: 2009-03-22 11:11 pm (UTC)I don't know, I guess that's not very comforting. Still, if you had survived then how much worse could you have gotten?
I'd never have known you.no subject
Date: 2009-03-22 11:15 pm (UTC)But theirs I think about every night.
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Date: 2009-03-22 11:35 pm (UTC)Private
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:15 pm (UTC)Private
Date: 2009-03-22 10:35 pm (UTC)I, um... meant to make this private to Billy.Dinner sounds fine.
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Date: 2009-03-23 01:54 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2009-03-23 02:44 am (UTC)Private - Want to summarize it so you don't have to spam?
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:27 pm (UTC)It's not like I haven't said this before, but I'm always here if you need me.
He always conveniently leaves out the "SYSTEMIZED RAPE!" part...
Date: 2009-03-22 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-22 10:57 pm (UTC)...I'm sorry for using "life," by the way. I know what it's like to be dead. It's just the only word that fits.
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:59 pm (UTC)SHE TELLS LIES to benefit him. She feels trapped all the time. xD
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:35 pm (UTC)Private
Date: 2009-03-22 10:39 pm (UTC)Private
Date: 2009-03-23 12:25 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2009-03-23 12:39 am (UTC)I try to think of them as monsters now, however. After it's passed.
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Date: 2009-03-22 10:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-22 10:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-22 11:03 pm (UTC)Did you ever kill someone who wasn't an Infected? Or, is that too personal a question?
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Date: 2009-03-22 11:06 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2009-03-22 11:08 pm (UTC)I don't know what you mean by "Infected," but once someone has been taken over so completely that there's not chance of them ever coming back, you don't have a choice. You do what you have to, to protect the ones who are still alive.
And yeah, that'll eat at you. But you did what was right.
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Date: 2009-03-22 11:19 pm (UTC)Anyway. My men were killed by a man aiding them, in the end.
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I'm sorry I was such a bastard the other day.
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Date: 2009-03-23 12:35 am (UTC)That's alright.
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Date: 2009-03-23 12:43 am (UTC)Private
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