99.1 - Reminiscing

[major_west]

I was given this journal at the time of my death-- or shortly after, anyway. It's odd, looking back at things I'd written when I wasn't really myself. I made a rubbish woman, an imbecilic teenager, and--

Hann--

Anyway. Despite everything here, the loss of identity through floodwater, the ports, all of the arrivals and sudden departures, the death and absolute... pointlessness of many of our struggles, this journal was the only thing that remained constant. I had never wanted to keep one before, but here I am, over a year past my death, and I'm still writing in it and speaking to it.

I wonder if it will remain after I've gone away from here.

P.S. The weasel has a name now. Billy and I have decided to call it Ripley, and we hope that it will grow into its name. And no, Libby, I will not walk it on a leash like a ridiculous mincing queen.

[Private to Morgan]
One of the newer Inmates came to me asking about weapons-- specifically, where he could obtain them. I didn't tell him anything, but I thought you should know, in case he came looking for a shag.

[OOC: AFTER DOING A COUNT AND REMOVING THE ACTION POSTS FROM THE TOTAL, this is ACTUALLY #98. Unless I missed some other action post. So there. I get to stall.]

Comments

[remarkablyblunt]

Oh, I'm sure they weren't entirely pointless!

[major-west.livejournal.com]

And why do you say that?

[remarkablyblunt]

Nothing's entirely pointless, is it? That which does not kill us and so forth.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

If you're referring to what we learn in pursuit of survival, I do believe in the merits of that. But the Barge has taken the struggle out of the equation. I've learned by now that no matter what happens, survival is merely a guarantee.

[remarkablyblunt]

I'm hardly the philosophical type, but I do think life is what you make of it. Dying may be paltry, but that doesn't mean everything else has to be! At least now you know for certain that you're a rubbish woman.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

I really didn't need to put a skirt on to find that out, though.

[remarkablyblunt]

Suit yourself, Major. Still, a positive attitude is half the battle. Determine to find a point in these struggles and I'm sure you will.

BAWWW MAJOR NIHILIST

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Spoken like a man who has some faith. Not everything has a point. Most lives, in fact, are quite meaningless.

[remarkablyblunt]

Most of the people living those lives would disagree with you, I should think.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

You've never seen the Infected. It hardly matters whether they agree or not.

[remarkablyblunt]

Infected? Hardly. Still and all, might as well get what enjoyment you can out of things or you'll just be miserable all the time.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

There are degrees of unfortunate events that I can derive enjoyment from. Floods go beyond all of them.

[remarkablyblunt]

Meaning then, if not enjoyment. Something to grow on.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

How many floods have you experienced?

[remarkablyblunt]

None, I must admit, though I was affected by the most recent port - I thought I was someone else entirely.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

That's a start. Let's resume this conversation after you've been through a few floods.

[remarkablyblunt]

If you say so!