062 - I feel pretty, oh so pretty!
Jan. 3rd, 2009 12:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Oh, quit complaining, all of you. It'll be over in a few days, as it always is. Honestly, is this any worse than a standard flood? You only look different.
[OOC: And he's so pretending that he didn't just have some insane fit of emo and crack open his Christmas booze at the sight of himself. SO. A LITTLE GIRL MIGHT BE GETTING ALCOHOL POISONING BECAUSE SHE'S TRYING TO DRINK LIKE A GROWN MAN. Somebody stop him plz :c]
[OOC: And he's so pretending that he didn't just have some insane fit of emo and crack open his Christmas booze at the sight of himself. SO. A LITTLE GIRL MIGHT BE GETTING ALCOHOL POISONING BECAUSE SHE'S TRYING TO DRINK LIKE A GROWN MAN. Somebody stop him plz :c]
SMART MOVE, BILLY (I have no smiling Hannah yet :c)
Date: 2009-01-03 04:09 pm (UTC)Annnd, ACTION!
Date: 2009-01-03 04:37 pm (UTC)West?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 04:49 pm (UTC)Billy!
...
[He drops the journal and rolls onto his stomach, propping his arms and head on the armrest as he stares at Billy]
You-- [a point] are not Billy.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 05:03 pm (UTC)Hey, if you can be a drunken teenage girl and still be West, then I can be a sober twenty-something woman and still be Billy.
[He pauses then, and looks down. He really doesn't like being Penny, it's creepy.]
I... kinda know what you mean though, I really don't like this.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 05:32 pm (UTC)This's all... wrong. I don't wanna be--
[He closes his eyes]
It's sick.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 05:41 pm (UTC)[Billy shifts back a little to sit down in front of West, peering at him curiously.]
So... who was she? You really don't know?
[He hesitates, before adding.]
I know who mine was, she was here for a bit even, remember?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 05:49 pm (UTC)I remember her. Penny.
[Then he slides down a little to hide his face in his arms. After a long pause, he finally speaks in a muffled voice]
A survivor.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 06:00 pm (UTC)A survivor.
[He remembers their first ever conversation, and feels a pang of something unsettling in his stomach.]
One of the ones you expected to do their duty?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 06:10 pm (UTC)Yes.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 06:37 pm (UTC)Look, you keep your head down, I'm going to go get you a drink of water, okay?
[Yeah he knows West is used to the drinking, but West is usually a fully grown soldier man, not a little girl.]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 06:55 pm (UTC)Don't feel well. [His voice is soft, with a far-away quality to it, and he closes his eyes]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 07:12 pm (UTC)Hey! Hey, West? Come on, now is not a good time to have a sleep!
[He gives the little girl a small shake, before sliding an arm under West to push him up a little, putting down the glass while he tries to rouse him.]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 07:37 pm (UTC)Hullo.
[Then he clumsily reaches for the water, spilling some as he brings it up to his lips.]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 07:51 pm (UTC)Hullo yourself.
[He lets the other man -- or, the little girl drink a little water, before asking:]
How you feeling? Any better?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 08:07 pm (UTC)'m gonna be sick.
[He quickly puts the glass down and moves to stand, then promptly loses his balance and stumbles back onto the couch]
Umm-- bucket?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 08:25 pm (UTC)[Billy has one of those moments of panic, where would West keep a bucket? Oh! The kitchen!]
Bucket! Right! Yes! I'll go... do that, now. Right.
[and out he darts, doing a quick hunt through the cupboards until he finds a big plastic basin and turns to head back towards West with it, hopefully before his friend spills his guts...]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 08:36 pm (UTC)Oh-- ew.
[He spits, trying to get rid of the taste of bile in his mouth, then swishes some water in his mouth and spits again]
...sorry.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 08:43 pm (UTC)It's okay, better out than in.
[He pauses for a moment, glancing down at the basin of bile. Gross.]
You feel better now? Or do you think there's more to come?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 09:03 pm (UTC)Thanks, Billy.
[He rubs his eyes, then looks down]
'm such a twat. I shouldn't've... done that.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 09:32 pm (UTC)Hey, what are friends for?
[He tilts his head back slightly, and lets out a sigh.]
Yeah, you probably shouldn't have done that, but... considering the circumstances? I'd probably have done the same.
[Well, maybe not exactly the same, but something similar, maybe.]
...If you went back, and it all happened again? Would you do any of it differently?
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 09:34 pm (UTC)What, try to kill myself with brandy or...
[He looks down and lowers his voice]
The other thing.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 09:41 pm (UTC)The other thing.
[He kind of knows it's not his place to be asking this, but he can't help but feel like maybe West needs to talk about it. even if he is a drunk little girl when he does.]
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 09:54 pm (UTC)[Oh. That's weird. He doesn't want to think about that, so he straightens up as best he can and shrugs]
I don't know.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 10:12 pm (UTC)He withdraws his arm quickly when West moves away.]
Do you feel guilty about it?
[He pauses, then adds quickly]
You don't hate too answer that. I just thought... It's not really something we've ever talked about.
ACTION
Date: 2009-01-03 10:15 pm (UTC)I do-- [He looks down at his hands] Did at the time, too. Sort of. [But it was necessary. That's all. It had to be done]