99.1 - Reminiscing

[major_west]

I was given this journal at the time of my death-- or shortly after, anyway. It's odd, looking back at things I'd written when I wasn't really myself. I made a rubbish woman, an imbecilic teenager, and--

Hann--

Anyway. Despite everything here, the loss of identity through floodwater, the ports, all of the arrivals and sudden departures, the death and absolute... pointlessness of many of our struggles, this journal was the only thing that remained constant. I had never wanted to keep one before, but here I am, over a year past my death, and I'm still writing in it and speaking to it.

I wonder if it will remain after I've gone away from here.

P.S. The weasel has a name now. Billy and I have decided to call it Ripley, and we hope that it will grow into its name. And no, Libby, I will not walk it on a leash like a ridiculous mincing queen.

[Private to Morgan]
One of the newer Inmates came to me asking about weapons-- specifically, where he could obtain them. I didn't tell him anything, but I thought you should know, in case he came looking for a shag.

[OOC: AFTER DOING A COUNT AND REMOVING THE ACTION POSTS FROM THE TOTAL, this is ACTUALLY #98. Unless I missed some other action post. So there. I get to stall.]

Comments

[remarkablyblunt]

Oh, I'm sure they weren't entirely pointless!

[major-west.livejournal.com]

And why do you say that?

[remarkablyblunt]

Nothing's entirely pointless, is it? That which does not kill us and so forth.

[possemagnet.livejournal.com]

Weasel's are just giant fucking rats. I hate rats.

[lazarusrisen.livejournal.com]

It's been a year since I arrived here for me also...if you leave or anything, I'll be sure to steal your journal for you before anyone has the chance to fuck it up. Sentimental reasons and what not.

I still can't believe you have a pet weasel.

Somebody's new and uninformed :c

[fiftymilesgone.livejournal.com]

You were a woman?

[major-west.livejournal.com]

If you're referring to what we learn in pursuit of survival, I do believe in the merits of that. But the Barge has taken the struggle out of the equation. I've learned by now that no matter what happens, survival is merely a guarantee.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure they're supposed to eat rats, actually. If we had a rat problem, I could actually find some use for this creature.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Well, there's a relief.

I know. I still don't see the point in it.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

In a... sense, yes. It was a flood.

[possemagnet.livejournal.com]

...really? I thought that they ate snakes, or something. Which I also don't like.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Perhaps they eat both. I don't know, really. It does seem partial to raw meat, either way.

[remarkablyblunt]

I'm hardly the philosophical type, but I do think life is what you make of it. Dying may be paltry, but that doesn't mean everything else has to be! At least now you know for certain that you're a rubbish woman.

[possemagnet.livejournal.com]

Anything is partial to raw meat under the right circumstances. But I get what you're saying. I never paid attention in biology. I spent too much time studying my teacher.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

I really didn't need to put a skirt on to find that out, though.

[fiftymilesgone.livejournal.com]

Oh. I see. Something else what's different from where I come from, I suppose.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

That was simply not an option in my classes. At least, I never found white hair and beards particularly attractive.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Yes. They take a bit of getting used to-- and honestly, you never fully get used to them. They change who you are and what you believe in.

[remarkablyblunt]

Suit yourself, Major. Still, a positive attitude is half the battle. Determine to find a point in these struggles and I'm sure you will.

[fiftymilesgone.livejournal.com]

That don't sound too fair. They said they were going to save us, but the way I see it, changing us ain't the same as saving us by a long shot.

BAWWW MAJOR NIHILIST

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Spoken like a man who has some faith. Not everything has a point. Most lives, in fact, are quite meaningless.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

I don't believe in the 'higher purpose' of this place. It's the same as any other prison: punishment over reform.

[remarkablyblunt]

Most of the people living those lives would disagree with you, I should think.

[possemagnet.livejournal.com]

Oh. That must have a been a merry ol' time! Did he give you gifts if you weren't on the naughty-list?

[fiftymilesgone.livejournal.com]

Someone else told me something like that, mister. Like, the wardens like to dress it all up fancy and say they wanna help, but really we're stuck here pretty much forever.