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major_west ([personal profile] major_west) wrote2009-08-25 10:39 pm

99.1 - Reminiscing

I was given this journal at the time of my death-- or shortly after, anyway. It's odd, looking back at things I'd written when I wasn't really myself. I made a rubbish woman, an imbecilic teenager, and--

Hann--

Anyway. Despite everything here, the loss of identity through floodwater, the ports, all of the arrivals and sudden departures, the death and absolute... pointlessness of many of our struggles, this journal was the only thing that remained constant. I had never wanted to keep one before, but here I am, over a year past my death, and I'm still writing in it and speaking to it.

I wonder if it will remain after I've gone away from here.

P.S. The weasel has a name now. Billy and I have decided to call it Ripley, and we hope that it will grow into its name. And no, Libby, I will not walk it on a leash like a ridiculous mincing queen.

[Private to Morgan]
One of the newer Inmates came to me asking about weapons-- specifically, where he could obtain them. I didn't tell him anything, but I thought you should know, in case he came looking for a shag.

[OOC: AFTER DOING A COUNT AND REMOVING THE ACTION POSTS FROM THE TOTAL, this is ACTUALLY #98. Unless I missed some other action post. So there. I get to stall.]

[identity profile] i-hate-posses.livejournal.com 2009-08-26 02:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Does it matter? If you get out of here, don't much matter what remains.

[identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com 2009-08-26 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
If I were to simply vanish again one day, like so many others, I would hope that something would remain.

[identity profile] i-hate-posses.livejournal.com 2009-08-26 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Why? You don't like it here.

[identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com 2009-08-26 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
No, but I don't fancy the idea of meaningless oblivion, either.

[identity profile] i-hate-posses.livejournal.com 2009-08-26 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah? Ain't like this place matters much. We're already dead.

[identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com 2009-08-27 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Don't you ever wonder if there's nothing at all beyond this?

[identity profile] i-hate-posses.livejournal.com 2009-08-27 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Didn't used to think there was much beyond dyin'. I reckon there can't be much beyond this.