056 - Pretending Truth or Dare never happened...

[major_west]

I thought that hangover would never go away...

I feel as though I've exhausted the possibilities for recreation here. I almost wish there were another port, flood, anything to break the tedium. I can't believe I'm asking this... Does anybody have a board game?

Nevermind that. I'm not that desperate yet.

I just need... to get away something to do here before I go completely mad. Something more to strive for than 'don't try to kill anybody for X amount of days'.



What's the point of this?

Comments

[major-west.livejournal.com]

And leading soldiers is quite a lot different than teaching the idiots here about history.

[gimmethemap]

Never said it had to be history. Survival, maybe? Self defense?

[major-west.livejournal.com]

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No.

[gimmethemap]

Did they teach you that beggars could be choosers, too? What would you like to do then?

[major-west.livejournal.com]

There's no point here!

[gimmethemap]

When no progress is being made? Yes. I agree. So what would you like to do about it?

[major-west.livejournal.com]

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[major-west.livejournal.com]

What, do you want to have yet another 'talk'?

[gimmethemap]

I figure we'll get to that when you're ready. And ready shouldn't just mean "when you're feeling impatient".

Look at this place as a vehicle for your personal changes. Anything you've always wanted to learn to do? Do it. If you can't, let me know and I'll see what I can do.

Books you've always wanted to read? We probably have them.

You only have to ask.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

...

What if I wanted to climb a mountain. Go on holiday to Brazil. Hell, go to a bloody amusement park.

Don't tell me I can do anything.

[gimmethemap]

I will tell you that I will see what I can do.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

...of course.

[gimmethemap]

So ask.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

I want to see my home. Before the Infection.

[gimmethemap]

...Are you sure?

I don't know if it's something the Admiral can manage or not, but I'll try if you really want that.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Well, I certainly don't want to see it after, so that leaves options limited.

How would he even do it?

[gimmethemap]

Probably the same way he gives the Wardens a way of going home for emergencies. It's not impossible.

But you should think about what that would mean, Major. You would step out into a world that, for you, doesn't exist anymore. You'll see people that have died -- people who you have seen die, people you may have had to kill -- walking around, living their lives, with no idea what will happen to them in the future. This includes waiters at your favorite restaurant, your neighbors, your mother or father.

These are all people you know may wind up dying, horribly, and you will not be able to bring yourself to tell them what is coming. When they ask you what's wrong, you won't be able to say. And there is no way they will believe you even if you could tell them.

At the very end you will have to walk away from them, return here, and leave them to their fate.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

...I see.

[gimmethemap]

If you asked me to do it I would, Major. But I don't want to hurt you.

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Don't...



It's unnecessary.

[gimmethemap]

And I didn't want this whole session of trying to find something for you to do to turn into a giant lecture on things done being done. It looks like everybody's got suggestions anyway.

If you want to talk, I'm always around.

And emotional shutdown time!

[major-west.livejournal.com]

Of course.